Most of the time, when I am faced with a difficult or challenging situation, decision or undertaking, and one that could go several different ways depending on the path I choose, I find myself asking whether or not God is testing me.
For example, one can be presented with a situation and choose to act upon it based upon personal desire, which might, in fact, lead to a self-destructive end. Other times, we may find ourselves not knowing whether to do something we were taught is just and right, and turning away from a situation, because we feel it does not suit our own personal needs. Our choice, ultimately, are based upon our own vision and interpretation of ourselves which could include a low self-esteem, or contrarily one where we feel that we are so large, other ways, ideas and perspectives have no merit inside our own particular universe. An individual may have inside their mind the idea that I engage in some self-destructive conduct or stay in a situation or relationship because I do not believe I deserve love. Or conversely, the world should operate the way I think, and failure to do so will result in self-destructive actions.
Letting go of something may be necessary for our own personal and spiritual growth, whether we agree with the consequences or not. Choosing to remain stuck inside of an immovable situation or relationship can only cause personal pain, suffering and result in feelings of low self-worth.
So my question is, do you believe that God tests us? Do we test ourselves to learn certain lessons in order to grow and mushroom into a better person? Ultimately, does it matter what the source of the insight is so long as we can become a better, more loving person?
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